ra dagarqva isic ki ar vici !

iyo da ara iyo rao ase iwyebs xolme yvela Tavisi zRaprebis moyolas...

xoda iyoda da ara iyo ra da dadga 1984 weli mere giorgoba mohyva da gavCdi mec, gavCdi da ravici ramdens albaT gauxarda Cemi gaCena ramdenma albaT farisevulrad Tqva gvixaria gvixariao, iseTebic iqnebodnen visac saerTod ar anaRvlebdaT gavCdi Tu ara, magram eg araferi eg araa mTavari, arc isaa mTavari me ro gavCdi, magram raxan gavCdi eseigi erTi axali istoriac gaCda am qveynad da CemnTan erTad daiwyo zrda da ganviTareba xoda ki gavida ase 24 ucnauri weliwadi uncaurio, rom vambob CemTvis ucnauri Tore ise ra ucnauri kia, zogisTvis mTeli cxovreba erTnairia da imasac ver grZnobs asaki ro emateba, magram egec araferia yvela xo Taviseburad aRiqvams am samyaros da arc me vyofilvar gamonaklisi. roca TvalSi xedva momivida mec daviwye am samyaros Cemeburad aRqma da Secnoba Turme rom vtirodi `ia, ia, ia~ ase gaviZaxdi ravici me ar maxsovs da ase ki ambobenras gaigeb rac ar gaxsovs sxvebs unda endo imaSi sxva arCevani ar gaqvs xoda mec vende ra gza maq...

ucnauri bavSvoba mqonda erqva ki saerTod bavSvoba, xo sanam bavSvobas daubrundebode erTi friad aRsaniSnavi momenti gamomrCa da getyviT Turme xorcis gasatarebeli manqanebis daSla awyoba myvarebia Zalian Tu eg mqonda aravis vawuxebdi Turme. zogi ityvis sacodavi saTamaSoebi ar qonia sawyalso, magram ara batono ukuRmarTi da ucnauri gamaCina RmerTma da ratom amas mere vityvi qvemoT mova magis droc... xo ras vambobdi bavsSvobao xo mgoni nu Tavidan viTom iyo bavSvoba saamayo socializmSi davibade gorbaCovs ro gauxma is Tavi ra undoda ras angrevda s.s.r.k-s (vxumrob raTqmaunda xumroba didi veraferi magram ra uWirs ukbilo xumrobebic xumrobaa zogjer )dagvangries batono Tavze socializmi da movida `demokratia~ brWyalebSi imito ro es ise iyo demokratia rorogr me mao Zeduni...

movida `demokratia~ da wavida gazi, wavida deni, miyva wyali da uceb ukuniTi ukunisamde iyo amin aklda mxolod xoda rogorc ityvian xolme iyo ~bneli da ukuni~,magram sicocxle mainc grZeldeboda da me mainc mixaroda sicocxle metyvian exla bneli da ukini Tu iyo Sen ra gixarodao, magram mixaroda da ras vizam xo ar movityuebi Tu mixaroda. siyvaruli Semiyvarda da mixaroda batono da Tu mixaroda vis ras uSavebdi Cemi sixaruliT marTalia deni ar iyo da gvixaroda misi mosvla , aseve iyo gazic da wyalic, magram rodis iyo bavSvs aseTi rameebi adardebda da arc me vyofilvar gamonaklisi (axlac ar vdardob didad da maSin xo saerTod) yvelas ro mokle Sortebi ecva me grZeli SarvliT davdiodi xuSturi mqonda aseTi mindoda da davdiodi uxeSad ro vTqvaT visi ra saqmea xoda mec mixaroda miyvarda siyvaruli da davdiodi ase siyvarulze Seyvarebuli grZel SarvalSi da kaci megona Tavi. Cveni mTavari gasarTobi ra iyo ro giTxraT gagecinebaT magram mzasumzira iyo Cveni gasarTobi da gulnaras xaWapurebi nisiad ro gamogvqonda kviraSi erTxel da mTeli kvira vistumrebdiT mere. oc TeTrs ro momcemdnen ojaxSi mefe megona Tavi, magram sanam mefe gavxdebodi da TeTrebi da larebi iqneboda kuponebi gvqonda manamde da mamaCemma asi milioni kuponi ro aiRo xelfasi mTeli msoflio Cemi megona xo iciT bavSvebis ambavi me ravicodi ekonomika da finansebi maSin is vicodi marto ro 100 da igic milioni didi ricxvi iyo ras izam asea cxovreba ro ggonia asea Turme araa ase da mere ki rCebi gulgaxeTqili an ara da dajdebi da gecineba uazrod, magram esec cxovrebis nawili yofila da ar mwydeba guli araferze, piriqiT iumoriT maxsendeba da siamovnebiT vicini am yvelaferze. arc ise viklavdi Tavs dardiT da exla miTumetes.

ase misdevdnen wlebi erTmaneTs da Cvenc ar vrCebodiT ukan mivzdevdiT rac SegveZlo da rogorac SegveZlo. skolaSi imdeni kuriozi gadamxdenia Tavs ro ravici. mere mogiyvbiT mova magis droc manamde sxva ram maqvs mosayoli da saTqmeli. cota cnobiereba ro gamiCda mamaCemi da Cems irgvliv myofni imas maswavlidnen siyvaruli unda moagrovo am qveynado xoda me siyvaruli miyvarda da dRemde miyvars da mixaroda amas ro meubnebodnen xoda daviwye mec siyvarulis dagroveba, moxveWa ramdenad SevZeli da SevZleb es Tqven gansajeT da iqeT rom waval saiqioSi iq RmerTi gansjis me davdivar da vagroveb da arasdros viTvli ramdenia, vici ro rac meti iqneba miT ukeTesia... daubrundeT exla mTavars xandaxan Tavic xo unda Seiqo adamianma yvelas uyvars albaT metnaklebad roca Tavs iqebs da roca aqeben kide yvelas siamovnebs ar TvqaT arao, sakuTar gulSi CaixedeT yvelam da ise TqviT ara! maxsovs erTxel viRac ganvsaje mamaCemTan, vin iyo ra mniSvneli aqvs vici exla bevris cnobis moyvareoba ar davakmayofile vin ganvsaje, rom ar vTqvi magram egec araferi gadaitanT amas rogorme araa mTavari da imitom. mamam mismina da bolos miTxra: `Svilo sanam vinmes gansjide jer sakuTari Tavi daayene mis adgilas, mere sakuTar Tavs kiTxe Sen ras izamdi mis adgilas rom iyoo, mere kide obieqturad upasuxe am Sens SekiTxvas da ise gansaje adamianio Tu ara da nu gansji nurasdroso~. am sityvebma Cemze Zalian imoqmeda faqtiurad didi roli iTamaSa Cemi xasiaTis CamoyalibebaSi da Cemi mokrZalebuli rCeva iqneboda sanam Tqvens vinmes gansjideT da gamoutandeT saboloo verdiqts Tqvenc igive gaakeTeT rasac me vSvebi xolme...

Tavidan yvela da yvelaferi momwonda da mainteresebda exlac mainteresebs,magram exla yvela da yvelaferi aRar momwons, kargis da cudis garCeva viswavle Cemis mokle mosazrebiT ase mgonia me da iqneb vcdebode kidec ar vici amas sicocxlis bolos gavigeb Tu vinaneb ganvlil cxovrebas eseigi ver miswavlia Tu ar vinaneb maSin miswavlia, TumcaRa erTs davamatebdi yvelas Tavisi samarTali aq da yvela Taviseburad marTalia, magram WeSmariteba erTia mxolod da me is WeSmariteba mainteresebs mxolod da Tqvenc albaT. asakTan erTad gavige Turme marto siyvaruli ar yofila am qveynad , siZulvilic yofila, borotebac , sikeTec (saTuTi da lamazi sityvaa sikeTe). gavige rom Turme adamianebi erTnairebi ar arian yvelani da maSin davsneuldi ori ramiT pirveli iyo fiqri da meore adamianebis amocnobis da Secnobis survili. ase daviwye eqsperimentebis mTeli seria. erTi sityviT fiqri Semiyvarda da rac fiqri Semiyvarda mas mere me da Zilma sastikad viCxubeT da ase daiwyo Cems cxovrebaSi uZilo da fiqriani Rameebi. vfiqrobdi aTas sisuleleze da ara marto. ase gadioda es wlebi uZilo RameebSi. mkiTxavT axla bavSvobaSi ar giyvarda aravino miyvarda yvela lamazi gogo miyvarda, magram seriozulad romelimeze ar vfiqrobdi yvela miyvarda da ra meqna vTqvi ukuRmarTad gavCdiTqo da abatoni mere morcxvi viyavi ? aramgonia ubralod ar vicodi vis ra reaqcia eqneboda raze da amitom veridebodi adamianebs da vakvirdebodi mindoda mcodnoda sanam rames vetyodi is rasac vetyodi ras mipasuxebda amaze. bavSvuri sisulele Tore kiTxe da gaigeb rad unda amdeni Tavis texva da tvinis Wyleta, mgram ara rogor SeiZleba egre xo ver daumtkiceb sakuTar Tavs rom magari xar... au ra gamaxsenda exla ro icodeT? rao mkiTxavT exla albaT isev es oxeri cnobis moyvareoba xoda moicadeT da getyviT exlave sadgeCqareba raxan aqamde waikiTxe es Cemi bJoriali dro bevri gqonia da cotasac moiTmen xoda ras vambobdi skolaSi rom vswvalobdi zafxulobiT siflad visvenebdi xoda saqme ra mqonda yanis Toxna da barva me ar miyvarda da raRac xo unda mekeTebina da me da Cemma megobarma `yobom~ romelTan erTadac vizrdebodi sofelSi yores Seneba daviwyeT Sua ezoSi esec bavSvuri sisulele da gasarTobi Tore ra unda yores Sua ezoSi, exla mecineba. iq soflad nagarevi qvia am Cems sofels cnobisTvis, rom icodeT mTagoriani bunebaa WiriviT mezareboda xolme am aRmarTebis avla, magram mainc miyvarda buneba miyvars da imitom. patara ezo gvaqvs ise qarTvelebs gvaq aseTi seni `didi~ am sityvis arsi ar gvesmis Tore erTi heqtari ro iqneba ezo dauxnav dauTesavi sadac darbixar patara qvia imas ?! magram mec qarTveli var da `patara~ ezo gvaq soflad am ezoSi vake saxlis winaa mxolod danarCeni ferdiviTaa, rom SeaReb ezos WiSkars xelmracxniv zemoT patara tyea, tye ra xeebia da tyis efeqts qmnis Tore 10 kvadrati xeebis erToblioba ra tye kia, magram bavSvisTvis esec tyea da amitom 10 kvadrati ar vici me tyea da morCa da am `tyeSi~ erTi 500 wlis muxis xe dgas raRa xe, tyavia darCenili marto sacodavi danarCeni fuRuroa SigniT. ise Zalian gviyvarda yvelas eg xe xan vimalebodiT im muxis fuRuroSi da ravi aTasniair daniSnuleba qonda am xes. Cvenc Cveneburad gviyvarda es xe bvaSvurad. cota ufro Rrmad, rom Seuyvebi biliks romelic WiSkridan iwyeba da xalasi mwvane balaxiTaa dafaruli ( ar miyvars maRalfardovneba Tore `dafaruli~ s nacvlad raime sxvas SevarCevdi sityvas, magram es sityvac savsebiT gamoxatavs imas risi Tqmac msurs. ) Sexvdebi saxls saxlso ise vTqvi viTom sasaxle idgas iq, ara batono sul raRac ori oTaxia da erTi samzareulo da iq gavizardeT oTxni me Cemi da da Cemi biZaSvilebi. saxlis Semdeg didi nigvzis xe idga (idga imito ro moWres da aRar dgas )da eg iyo Cveni TavSeyris adgili maimunebiviT avZvrebodiT xolme am nigvzis xeze da verTobodiT rogorc SegveZlo, cota zemoT ori didi muxis xe dgassabednierod ar mouWriaT isini jer da medgrad dganan. danarCeni ZiriTadad mindoria daqanebul ferdze. Zalian miyvarda am mindvris cqera, roca gvrilebiT ivseboda xolme ezo ulamazesi sanaxaobaa sasiamovno emocias iwvevs da egaa guls uxaria roca sicocxlis zeims uyurebs. egaaa bunebis mTeli xibli sicocxlis eSxs grZnob roca bunebaSi xar, zogs qalaqi urCevnia bunebas da ravi asfaltis da umgvani arqiteqturis cqeras romelic blomadaa Cvens irgvliv, namdvilad sjobia kai bunbebis peizaJiT tkboba. es Cemi subieqturi mosazrebaa da alabT obieqturi mosazrebebi ar arsebobs, radgan Cemi mokle WkuiT yvela obieqturi mainc subieqturia bolos.

xoda Cemo batono am Sua mindorSi SeudeqiT yoris Senebas me da Temurim viTom cixe simagres vaSenebdiT CvenTvis da ase viqcevdiT Tavs xolo Cemi biZaSvili gvingrevda RamRamobiT am Cven naSenebs da iyo erTi ura ura, maxsovs erTdRes ganmicxades yana unda gagvaToxninooo da 6 saaTze wamomagdes fexze ara da rogor ar mindoda jer gaRviZeba da mere Toxna da gabrazebulma sarevelas magivrad sul simindebi movWeri ToxiT is iyo da is mere me aravis wauyvanivar saToxarSi. asea batono dilis Zili msxverpls moiTxovs da mec Sevwire jansaR simindTa mTeli armia.

soflad bevri istoriebi gvqonda da Sors wagviyvans magaze saubari ase ro daubrundeT mTavars!

amdeni xania vsaubrob ramdeni rame vTqvi da am `bnels da ukun~ s ar daadga saSveli 90 iani wlebia da SevardnaZe `mxsnelad~ gvizis da Cvenc wynarad varT aravis mogvwons Cveni `mxsneli~ magrm arc xmis amoReba unda vinmes. sul mikvirda xolme ratom iTmenda xalxi amdens da ver vxvdebodi Turme moiTmine da gaigeb, brZen xalxs uTqvams Tavis droze xalxi brboa da cxvirs farao da saiTac mierekeba yoCi iqeT midian yvelanio da marTlac asea iqeT midian yvelani saiTac yoCs miyavs da arvin kiTxulobs an sad mivdivarT, an rato mivdivarT, gvWirdeba ki aqeT svla?! ara aravin kiTxulobs ratomrac yvela TavisTvisaa da ar iRebs xmas umravlesoba im poziciaze dgas: `iyviros iman da viyvireb meco~ Wabua amirejibs gaumarjos RmerTma am sityvebisTvis. Wabua vaxsene da aqve davsZen, rom Suriani sazogadoeba gvyavs Zalian da imis magivrad, rom aseTi mwerali dagvefasebina saTanadod, Worebi mougoneT araa daTa TuTaSxia misi nawarmoebio da amas ise gaiZaxis yvela dasabuTeba rom mosTxovo ver dagisabuTeben. ismis kiTxva ratom akeTeben amas me upasuxebdi Surianebi varT da imito. ver veguebiT Cvens gverdiT sxvis didebas da siZlieres Suri gvaxrCobs da erTi suli gvaq rodis CavqolavT Cvens irgviv myofebs da zemodan rodis moveqceviT. anegdotic kia erTi Cvenze aseTi:

angelozi Camovlazea jojoxeTSi da qvabebs aTvalirebs sadac sxvadasxva xalxi ixarSeba

-am qvabSi vin ixarSeba ikiTxa angelozma

-aq ebraelebi ixarSebiano

-moxadeT aba Tavio

- ras ambob erTi Tavis moxda da naxevari aRar iqnebian SigniT gaiparebiano

gaagrzeles gza da erT qvabs saerTod ar axuravs Tavi da

-aq vin ariano ikiTxa angelozma da aq batono qarTvelebi ariano

-mere rato ar axuravs Tavzed araferi ?

- rad unda Tavsaxuri erTi rom amodis meore fexebze ekideba ara me unda gaviqce pirevlio da ase Ziraven erTmaneTso.

bevri axla moRalated gamomacxadebs am sityvebis mere, magram ar var moRalarte miyvars me Cemi qveyanac da Cemi xalxic da rom miyvars da mtkiva es yvelafei imitomac vambob Torem sulac ar amoviRebdi xmas. ratomRac aravis ar gviyvars am Cvens simaxinjeebze da mankirebebze saubari ara da gvRupavs eg Cveni simaxinjeebi da mankirebebi da droze unda moviciloT Tu gvinda, rom rogorc guram doCanaSvili ambobs: ` Cven didi sityva gvqvia eri gvqviao~ gverqva da unda SevinarCunoT eg, magram rac cudi gvaq Tu ar movicilebT verafersac ver SevinrCunebT rac gvaq imasac davkargavT albaT . . .

es araferi gavige, rom Turme xalxi brbo yofila da rom yvela sxvas elodeba rodis gaakeTebs mis gasakeTebels. magram Turme sad xar cxovreba mTeli rigi siurprizebiTaa savse axal ucnaur momentebs gadavawydi uamravi adamianebi vnaxe romlebic mTeli arsebiT arian mowadinebuli sxvebis bed iRbali gadawyviton ara da Tavisi ver mougvarebiaT. andazaa erTi: `ZaRli saxlSi ar vargoda da sanadirod garbodao~ isea albaT aseTi xalxis saqme bevri vifiqre rato iqeqeboda es xalxi am sxvis cxovrebaSi da rato cdilobdnen sxvebis cxovrebis gamoqeqvas da gamoaSkaravebas da mere mivxvdi, rom amiT TavianTis damalvas cdiloben da sakuTar azrebs axveven Tavs yvelas metic amtkiceben ro aucileblad ase unda gaakeTos yvelamo ratomo rom hkiTxo bevri getyvis saWiroa ase da imitoo ase dagvibares Cvenma winaprebmao. es kdie sakiTxavia vin daubara da vin ara, magram ras gaigeb qveyana Wrelia. naTqvamia: `zogs mRvdeli mowons zogs mRvdlis colio~ ismis kiTxva rato varT ase da ratoa ase !? amazec bevri vifiqre ra saimovnebas aniWebs am xalxs sxvis cxovrebaSi qeqva da Careva da albaT erTi martivi pasuxi aq amas sxva saqme araaaqvT da imitom da ar ician dro raSi moklan da sxvis cxovrebaSi iqeqebian tyuil ubralod ver Cerdeba damiani. sizarmace da usaqmuroba meroe Cveni problema.

yovelTvis mikvirs rogor Cerdeba es xalxi quCaSi `birJaze~ mTeli dRis manZilze didad armainteresebs magram mec adamiani var da sadRac mainc cnobismoyavreoba mZlevs xolme, arc me var frTiani angelozi...

ase garbodnen es wlebi fiqrebSi da mec nela nela vizrdebodi asaki memateboda da siyvarulic mewvia anu kerZod gamiCda raRac grZnoba kerZo adamianis mimarT bavSvuri, magram ra mniSvnelobaaq siyvaruli siyvarulia da lamazi da saTuTi grZnobaa da viTom tanjvaao iZaxis bevri, magram me yoveli wuTi siamovnebiT maxsendeba roca Seyvarebuli vyofilvar vinmzeze aTasi sisulelec gamikeTebia da sxva bevri ram, magram arafers vnanob radgan siyvarulSi sananebeli araferia, am qveynad vinc nanobs sulelia yvela. rogor SeiZleba is vinano rom admaiani miyvarda piriqiT mixaria ro miyvarda bednier adamianad vTvli Tavs rom siyvaruli SevZeli da RmerTma imis Zala momca Semyvareboda da mere egoizmad ar mqceoda eg lamazi grZnoba. es mixria yvelaze metad ician Tqma siyvaruli erTxel modis cxovrebaSio magram me ar veTaxmebi am mosazrebas ise rogorc bevr sxva danarCenebs, erTxel ki ara bevrjer modis da yovelTvis sxvadasxvanairad danarCeni imazea damokidebuli rogor gaufrTxildebi Senc da is sxvac am lamaz grZnobas, arc maradiuli araa siyvaruli Tumca Tu ufrTxildebi maSin xdi maradiuls me egre mgonia da ase mjera visac gsurT daijereT visac ara Tqveni nebaa. es gamigrZelda sityva siyvarulze da exla imas daubrundebi rac daviwye meSvide klassSi viyavi roca Cemi jgufi daSales da gadagvanawiles sxva klasebSi. xoda mec, rom Semiyvanes CemTvis gankuTvnil klassSi leqcia dawyebuli iyo, rom Sevedi erTi gogo momxvda TvalSi, dResac dRevandeli dResaviT maxsovs eg yvelaferi. TiTqos guSin momxdariyos ise uncauri gancda dameufla, uamravi lamazi gogoebi myavda klassSi SeiZleba masze gacilebiT lamazebic, magram me mas davadgi Tvali mainc da mainc, TiTqos dro gaCerda Cems irgvliv iseTi gancda mqonda stop-kadriviT iyo es yvelaferi albaT es momenti sicocxlis bolomde ar damaviwydeba. mere mTeli romantizmi iyo mrcxvenoda da ver utydebodi siyvarulSi da vardebs vukeTebdi qaRaldisgan da vCuqnidi da ase vaxarebdi Cemi siyvarulis Wias.

cxvrebaSi bevr ucnaur adamians Sevxvdi sxvadasxva dros da garemoebaSi da maTgan uamravi kargi ram viswavle bevrma Cemi xasiaTis Camoyalibebaze iqonia didi gavlena. mamaCemis megobrebma xelovneba Semayvares mere ise aRmoCda, rom ukve sxvagvarad ar SemiZlia, xelovneba sulis sazrdoa da yvela xelovnebiT unda `ikvebebodes~ imis Tqma minda rom rac ar unda mankieri iyos sazogadoeba iq yovelTvis moiZebnebian naTeli wertilebi romlebic asazrdeben am sazogadoebas da isini, rom ar iyvnen saerTod ver iarsebebda es sazogadoeba da swored es naTeli wertilebi iyvnen is adamianebi vinc zemoT vaxsene.

mTeli cxovrebaa sazogadoebas vakvirdebi da adamianebs es Cemi hobia, uamravi kiTxvebi damigrovda droTa ganmavlobaSi bevrs gaveci pasuxi ufro meti upasuxod maq jer kidev da axlac veZeb mis pasuxs da roca yvelaferis pasuxs vipovi mere davmSviddebi albaT sulierad, magram davmSviddebi kiii ar vici am kiTxvaze ar maq pasuxi ar vici davmSviddebi Tu ara magram is vici rom sanam cocxali var bevri lamazi ram melis win bevri tkivilic iqneba bevri sixarulic da ase Semdeg. erTxel mkiTxa erTma guli rom getkinos ar geSiniao ? xoda Cemo kargebo guli imisTvisaa ro getkinos, im guls ra uTxar rom ar getkineba eg guli ki ara xorcis mfeTqavi naglejia romelic Cveulebriv tumbosgan arafriT gansxvavdeba didad. guli unda getkinos da mere unda dagiSuSon iarebi sayavrelma adamianebma ugrznobi riyis qva rad minda aba mkerdSi, ramdenjer mtkenia guli vin moTvlis magram bevrjerac damSuSebia is Wrilobebi da es im adamianebs gaukeTebiaT visac uyvarvar, visTvisac Zvirfasi var, ase iqneba yvelasTan da ar meSinia me gulis tkivilis da nurc Tqven geSiniaT araa saSiSi da immitom. Cemi guli avtonomiuri respublikasaviTaa da Tavisas mierekeba yovelTvis da gonebas ar emorCileba arasdros bolomde, zogjer saerTod ar emorCileba... uamravi leqsi dauweria am guls, aumravi siTbo da siyvaruli dautevia uamravi gaucia da asec unda iyos gacemis ar unda eSinodes adamians, me rac meti gaveci ufro meti damibrunda ukan, xoda gaeciT Tqvenc. qveynad risi Senaxvac ar SeiZleba grZnobaaa, siyvarulia, siTboa da es iseTi Rirebulebebia romelic mudam unda gasces adamianma Tore ise mis arsebobas azri ekargeba, me ase mgonia da Tu sxvamac ar gasca es yvelaferi Cvenc rogor miviRebT aba. ise miReba yvelas gviyvars gacema met naklebad, ara da vis unaxavT imas rac gasacemia is grZnoba rac SenSia sxvas ekuTvnis is Seni araa Seni isaa rac im sxvas aq gulSi gadamaluli SenTvis. grZnoba romelsac adresati ar yavs grzZnoba araa. amitom me imisTvis vxarjav grZnobebs vis mimarTac vgrznob da minda, rom yvela egre iyos, ai subieqturobis mZafri gamovlineba albaT adamianebs obieqturobis gancda ar gagvaCnia radgan yvela Cvengani Cveni simarTlidan vzomavT yvelafers da xSirad ar uwyevT sxvisas angariSs. yvelas gvaviwydeba xolme, rom SeiZleba vcdebiT ucnauria adamiani da Zalian saintereso da me miyvars igi yvla Tavisi dadebiTiT da metnaklebad uaryofiTiT.

24 wlis manZilze damRala `mravalferovanma erTferovnebam~damRala gauTavebelma uazro mentalitetma romelci Cems irgvliv trialebs, damRala `privatizebulma yuradRebam~ , damRala amdenma materializzmma, amdenma banalurobam, isic mravldaaa Cvens irgvliv, amdenma farisevlobam, amdenma yalbma grZnobebma , amdenma sicruem, daviRale daviqance am yvelafrisgan, magram sicocxle mainc saamuria da araferia qveynad ise lamazi da saintereso rogorc Tavad sicocxle da misi Semecneba SegrZnebis procesi...

me Tu mkiTxaven rogori ginda iyos Seni sicocxleo me upasuxebdi daugegmavi da moulodnelobebiT savse. sicocxle qariSxaliviT unda iyos, celqi da mousvenari mindvris siosaviT, mgznebare qalis tuCebiviT da lamazi qalis RimiliviT....

P.S. araferia qveynad iseTi lamazi da saintereso rogorc qalia, da araferia qveynad iseTi eSxiani da vnebis momgvreli rogorc qalis Rimilia....

zemoT vTqvi, rom araferia sicoxzleze lamazi Tqo exla vambob, rom qalze lamaziTqo da SemekamaTeba bevri rom ar ganvmarto qalia Tavad sicocxle da sicocxlis sawyisi amitom sicocxle qaliviT lamazia da qali kide sicocxlesaviT lamazi . . .

vifiqre Tavs ar Sevawyen mkiTxvels Cemi mosazrebebiT da istoriebiTTqo, magram verc me movisvene da ukmariosbis gancda dameufla da Tqvenc momeciT stimuli, rom kvlav gamegrZelebina am yvelafris wera vici exla bevrs SeiZleba ucnaurad moeCvenos is rasac exla vityvi, magram stereo tipebze da dogmatikaze saSineli am qveynad araferi ar arsebobs da xelonebaSi standartebi miTumetes miuReblad mimaCnia. esec ambiciurobis gamovlineba raRacas vwer da ukve xelovnebis nimuSi mgonia asea adamiani jer gadamxtaric araa da hop unda, rom daiZaxos. asea es yvelas gvgonia, rom raRac genialurs vqmniT da vakeTebT met naklebaT raTqmaunda da yvelas gviWirs imis aRiareba, rom bevrs arafers warmovadgenT da Cvens ususurobas aTasi sisuleliT vamarTlebT da ase vityuebT Tavs da vcdilobT ase movatyuoT sxvebic, rom sakuTari ususuroba davfaroT amiT. exla Temas gavcdi da risi Tqma msurda xSirad posskriptums nawarmoebis bolos weren xolme SeniSvnis saxiT mec SemeZlo exla es posskriptumi nawarmoebis boloSi gadametana, magram ar gadamaqvs ase mgonia uadgilo iqneba exla am sityvebis boloSi gadasrola boloSi sxva posskriptumebi iqneba kidev. raxan wera gavnagrZe kidev bevr rameze visaubreb albaT da imedia ise movaxerxeb, rom es yvelaferi mosawyeni ar iqneba da plus cota Rrmac iqneba saTqmelis Sinaarsi.

nebismier wams Tu wuTs Cems irgvliv mimdinare procesebs vakvirdebi da vcdilob Sevicno adamianTa cxovrebis arsi da im sazogadoebis arsi da funqcionirebis mamodzravebeli elementebi sadac me vcxovrob. bevri dakvirvebis Semdeg pirveli rac davinaxe is iyo, rom am samyaroSi yvlaferi gacilebiT martivadaa vidre TiToeuli Cvengani aRiqvams da ganicdis amas. adamianebma gulis Tvali daxuWes da dabrmavebulebi dadian am qveynad da albaT amitomacaa, rom ase garTulda maTTvis es samyaro, albaT amitomacaa rom advilad samarTavni gaxdnen da advilad eqcevian sxvaTa zegavlenis qveS. yvela cdilobs ise icxovros rogors sxvebi, da iSviaTad uCdeba vinmes kiTxva: "ratom unda vicxovro ise rogorc cxovroben sxvani ? " me vityodi, rom imitom ar unda icxovro ise rogorc sxvebi cxovroben, rom Sen ar dakargo Seni individualizmi da pirovneba. Senc Tu zustad ise cxovrob rogorc sxva danarCeni Sens irgvliv myofni da Seni individualizmi ar gagaCnia, ukve sxvisi cxovrebiT cxovrob ise, rom verc ki acnobiereb amas. adamianis sicocxle Semoqmedebaa da adamiani mudmiv TviT ganaxlebis processSi unda iyos Cemis azriT. adamianis suli gamdinare wyaliviT unda iyos, rom sispetake SeinarCunos da ar damyaydes da ar dalpes da ar mokvdes adamiani sulierad. codvaa is vinc sulmkvdari dadis am qveynad, da visac siyarulis niWi aqvs warTmeuli.

adamianebi imdenad materialistebi gavxdiT, rom yvelze mTavari davkargeT, Tavisufleba davkargeT da materiis da materializmis monebad viqeciT da bednierebi varT xSirad am yvelafriT. erTmaneTis gazomvac materializmiT daviwyeT da imas vTvliT xSirad warmatebul adamianad vinc milionebi agrova mTeli sicocxle da viZaxiT didi adamiani iyoo. me piradad makedonelis pirovneba erT Sauradac ar miRirs , arc napoleonis, da sxva bevri misTanebis, imitom, rom am adamianebs ubraloebis gancda ar gaaCdaT da sakuTar ambiciebs uamravi adamianebis sicocxle Sewires. zogjer meRimeba roca adamianebi iZaxian Cven omSi gavimarjveTo. omSi gamarjvebulebi ar arseboben me ase mgonia omSi arian damarcxebulebi da gaCanagebulebi, da damarcxebulebi isini arian gavimarjveTo rom iZaxian gaCanagebulebi kide isini vinc damarcxebulad iTvlebian omSi. Tore aTasobiT Sens sayvarel adamians, rom dakargav da erTi imden mtris codvas daideb kiserze rogor xar gamarjvebuli ra sazomiT xar gamarjvebuli magram biTuria adamiani da gamarjveba sxvisi damoneba da dapyroba hgonia samwuxarod. biTuria adamiani Tore Tu biTuri da brbo araa ratom ewireba viRacis uazro ambiciebs?! biTuria da imitom ewireba.

Tu rame wamikiTxavs istoriaSic da isec adamianebi mTeli arsebobis manZilZe Zalauflebisaken miviltviT, aTasnairi iaraRi Seqmna adamianma, roca yvelaze Zlieri iaraRi dabadebidan misca RmerTma yvelas da es iaraRi sityva iyo yovelTvis da arasdros arsebobda qveynad imaze didi da Zlieri iaraRi da iseTi maStaburic rogoric sityvaa, magram ver acnobierebs amas adamiani da ar wams amis rwmena ar gvyofnis, roca erT sityvas SeuZlia mesame msoflio omi daiwyos an piriqiT saerTod SeaCeros is da Tu ase araa, ratom veqceviT sxvadasxva mwerlebis sityvaTa zegavlenis qveS TiToeuli Cvengani ?! sworad warmoTqmul erT sityvas ufro meti Zala da energiaaq vidre asiaTasian jariskacTa armias da imedia amaSi yvela dameTanxmeba.

yvelaze mTavari isaa rom dro gadis da admianebi icvlebiano iZaxis yvela ara da adamianebi ar icvlebian dResac iseTebi arian Sinaganad, rogorc aqamde iyo, magram bevrma adamianma sakuTar Tavs Tavad SeuzRuda ganviTerebis areali da sxvebs aZlevs uflebas masze manipulireba moaxdinon da yoveldiurad uamravi adamiani uars ambobs iseT rameebze rac guliT unda da uars ambobs ara imitom rom misTvisaa miuRebeli aramed imisTvis, rom ras ityvis xalxio da mTeli iumori imaSia, rom es xalxi viRac erTis gavlenis qveSaa xSirad da sinamdvileSi yvela erTsa da imaves fiqrobs raRac sakiTxis mimarT da or adamians erTi da igive mosazreba aqvT erTsa da imave sakiTxze da erTmaneTs ver eubnebian amas imis SiSiT ras ityvis xalxio. me getyviT, rom xalxi mainc imas ityvis risi Tqmac undaT da amitom ar Rirs imis dardiT Tavis mokvla ras ityvis xalxi. platonma Tqva erTxel: " mTavari is ki araa ras ityvian Cemze aramed is vin ityviso" da asecaa me veTanxmebi am mosazrebas mTavaria vin ityvis da ara is ras ityvian. me verasdros vambob uars raRacis gakeTebaze imis SiSiT rom sxva cudad gaigebsTqo, me vakeTeb vinc ver gebulobs es imaTi problemaa da sxvaTaSoris adre Tu gvian yvela yvelafers gebulobs mainc unda mas es Tu ara. danarCeni vin ramdens aRiarebs eg sxva sakiTxia. bevrjer yofila gvian mimxvdaran, magram mainc mimxvdaran Cems saqciels. adamianma Tu imaze ifiqre ras ityvian sxvebi sikeTec dagrCeba gaukeTebeli da siTbo da siyvaruli gaucemeli da erTferovan an mravalferovan erTferovenbaSi dalev suls..

raxan stero tipebs da dogmebse SevexeT, sul miCndeba kiTxvebi aseT sakiTxebTan da CemTvis arasdros araa misaRebi pasuxi: `asea saWiro da imitom~. ai ar mesmis, ratom ar SeiZleba qalma gamoutydes kacs sakuTar grZnobaSi Tu qali Seyvarebulia, ar mesmis ratom aris kaci valdebuli qals yuradgeba miaqcios, ratom unda daifaso Tavi da Tvqa ar minda roca ginda da ase Semdeg Zalian bevria egeTi SekiTxvebi romelic SeiZleba daisvas. Tu adamiani giyvars ras niSnavs Tavi unda davifaso, rom man Cemi fasi gaigos me rogorac vici adamiani Seufasebelia da romel faszea saubari netav ? Tu miyvars da minda adamianTan yofna arasdros vityvi, rom ar minda. bevri qalisgan gamigia "ici me qali var da aqeT momaqcion yuradReba me es mekuTvnis " ver gavige privatizebuli aqvT am qalebs yuradReba Tu ratom ekuTvniT netav, me vici da ase mwams, rom yuradReba unda daimsaxuro Seni pirovnebiT da yovelTvis geqneba yuradReba roca imsaxurebda im yuradRebis rac vqTvi valdebulebiT rom gaqcevs vinme da ara surviliT. neta rogor ver xvdebian am ors Soris gansxvavebas roca viRacas surs, rom yuradReba mogaqcios da SenTvis daixarjos da roca viRac sulac ar aris mosurne yuradReba mogaqcios da SenTvis daixarjos, magram valdebulebiT akeTebs amas. am qveynad calmxrivi araferi cocxlobs didxans es unda axsovdes yvelas...

ver gamigia im sazogadoebis sadac Sroma sircxvilia da moparva misaRebia da sadac samarTals is giwyevts vinc Tavad iqceva usamarTlod, ar mesmis im sazogadoebis romelic mxvetavs pirovnebad ar Tvlis da qurds da yaCaRs sapativcemulo pirovnebad da avtoritetebad Tvlian. bevri profesorebi minxavs iseTebi adamianebad rom ar vargnan da uinteleqto da xepreebi arian mikvirs rogor misces maT profesoris wodeba. aseve minaxavs xalxi ubralo adamianebi yovelgvari regaliebis gareSe da udidesi pirovnebebi yofilan TavianTi inteleqtiT da me gisvamT yvelas kiTxvas maSin quCis mxvetavi, ratom araa pirovneba Tu is Tavis lukma purs quCis xvetiT Soulobs da ar eTakileba mas es da miTumetes aseTi adamianebi qmnian rialurad yvela Cvenganis yofier cxovrebas da isini rom ar iyvnen bevri Cvengan ver igrZnobda komfortulad Tavs. me vTvli da es isev da isev avRniSnav rom Cemi subieqturi mosazrebaa rom Cvens sazogadoebas mentalur safuZvelSi aq defeqti da sanam am saZirkvels ar gamovcvliT da Tavidan ar CavyriT axal xalas saZirkvels Cemis azriT rasac am saZirkvelze davaSenebT zevidan arafers ar eqneba momavali da warmateba.

ar mesmis ras niSnavs sityva Zvelmoduri, is rac gsiamovnebs da gixaria araferi araa Zvelmoduri da imitom rom viRac ambobs rom Zvelmoduria da is dagcinebs amisTvis ar Rirs uaris Tqma imaze, rom Tundac werili miwero sayvarel adamians, Tundac is rom usmende 60 wlebis musikas, an usmende imas rasac aravin usmens an cota Tu usmens vinme, Tu guls uxaria da unda araferi araa Zvelmoduri. banaluri ar unda iyos rasac akeTeb is. danarCni qcevis da grZnobebis moda ar arsebobs da arc dro aqvs rames. me mzad var Tundac serenada umRero sayvarel adamians Tu es guls uxaria da unda, Tundac saxalxod uTxra Tu rogor miyvars. Tvalwin midgas erTi dRe im mravalTagan romelsac sayvarel adamianTan erTad gavatareb warmoidgineT triali mwvane norCi balaxiT dafaruli mindori sadRac sofelSi an bunbaSi sadac mindori gadaWedilia uamravi ulamazesi yvavilebiT, grili sio uberavs da gaxurebul gul mkerd gigrilebs, Seni sayvareli admaianisTvis rom agroveb am mindvris yvavilebs, romlisganac ginda iseTi lamazi Taiguli gaakeTo, rom man emocia ver damalos am Taigulis silamazisgan, gvirgvins rom mownav am yvavilebisgan, romlesac Tavze daadgam Sens dedofals, da mere misi silamazis cqeriT datkbebi. mindorSi rom gaerTxmebi am lamaz yvevilebSi da Seni sayvareli adamianis Tavi mkerdze gadevs da mas Seni gaSmagebuli gulis Zgera esmis. Sen kide saTuTad ealersebi da uCeCav Tmas, is kide ganabuli, da gayursuli, mTeli arsebiT Caflulia am Sens siTboSi da zemodan dagyurebs zeca mTeli misi mokazmulobiT, da uceb gaSmagebuli, rom daacxrebi mgznebare bageze da mTels guls da suls Caaqsovs am amborSi da Semdeg ise magrad Caikrav gulSi rom misi gulis yovel Zgeras, rom grZnob sakuTar mkerdze, da aTrTolebili isea gayursuli am Sens mklavebSi, rom mis ususurobas da umweobas mTeli arsebiT grZnob... mgoni am yvelaferSi Zvelmoduri an dros, rom ver uZlebs da ver eTanxmeba an da epoqas aramgonia, rom iyos rame. amitom nu grcxveniaT imis risi gakeTebac gsurT da iyaviT originalurebi erTmaneTisTvis. me mgoni rom yvela adamianisTvis yvelaze didi eqimi Tavad meore adamiania. da yvela normaluri admianisTvis yvelaze Zvirfasi da Tbilad mosagonari is lamazi da originaluri wuTebia romelic misTvis giCuqnia rodesme. es yvela saCuqarze metia, didia da Zvirfasi. mokrZalebiT aq Cems patara leqss daurTavdi:

minda mogiZRvna mTeli sicocxle,

da mag Sens Rimils ucqerde marad,

minda sicocxlis xasliss giRZravde,

da Seni sevda gavfanto sadRac . . .

P.S. ici rom mkiTxo rogor giyvarvar gipasuxebdi rom Cemeburad . . .

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